After I dropped Lily off at school this morning, a song came on the radio. Ya know, that Taylor Swift song thats everywhere and never stops playing, and it makes your ears wanna bleed.
It brought me to tears. Seriously, I had to pull over.
So I did it. I cried over another dumb situation, that I said I would never get emotional about ever again. I decided to forget that I had emotions after a certain doctor flipped out on me. But they snuck up, sucker punched me, and ran.
Ben is back in town. In Lansing. At my house as we speak.
Sometimes I wonder what happened between Ben and I. Sure, he wears crocks and courderoys. He listens to completely aweful and obscure music. Hes a new found vegan, and that bugs me for some reason, hes sensitive and has been known to cry more then once in a day, he talks things out, he builds decks, and drags me to Home Depot at 6 am on my birthday, and he never hurt me once. He never looked at other women. He never raised his voice. He never went out of his way to make me feel bad. And I let him go.
So now, he’s here, and hes doing all those “ben” things that he always did back in Seattle, and maybe I’ve just had my fair share of bad men and bad things happen to me since breaking it of with Ben, but right now, he’s in my house, and he seems odd and perfect.
I let him go, and he came back. Isn’t that what they call……love?
EEEEEK!
hahaha, I’m off to listen to aweful and obscure music with McScenster 
